Hello amos.

2008-10-17T01:21:00.001+08:00

this is just another start.
start to yet another story with a lousy ending.
how much i hoped its different.
ha!
not looking good.

Leave

2008-10-13T03:54:00.002+08:00

i have so much to say.
how 2008 flew past just like that.
i need so much help .
i don't know where i'm going to.
where i'm headed.
where i will be in the future.
getting kinda tired of the grey grey blogskin so i'm most likely gonna find a new skin.

i feel like i'm falling into another pithole .
but maybe this one isnt like the others. right?

School is starting soon.

2008-10-03T03:03:00.002+08:00

how days fly away like superfast .
picanto let lorry bang. rented mazda car to drive
alot has happened .
kinda just forgotten to blog.
and jay's new album is out!
and i'm trying to squeeze out some money for bike lessons.
strugggling ahhh.
not easy at all.
like no point being so emo in blog already.
thats why never update so much .

2b here i come

2008-09-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

i'll go for 2b

work hard for money.

see how things go.

byebye

+

2008-09-16T00:15:00.001+08:00

its not getting any better.
who can help make it better?
who can help going into the next day any easier?
who can let me know what i'm walking into.

it wouldnt hurt, right?

2008-09-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

my taka days are over.
in a flash,

i don't know what i'm feeling right now.
i'm sad that im officially jobless now.
i'm happy that i dun have to go to work in the morning.

but i have no choice. this is my destiny!
time to get another job.
something that i can learn some fucking skill from.
something that may change my life :):):)
time to start the search !

holiday. i mean, off day

2008-09-08T13:37:00.002+08:00

another 2 day off heheh.
one mor week to the end of this taka fair. will miss working there hahaaha. next sem maybe.
or i'll find another job hahaa.
today is a special day, ling's birthday
so,
Happy Birthday !
okay . . eh why is the font still so big?
anyway today i had a weird dream. i dreamt that a good friend of mine had an accident and another friend of mine was wearing a wedding gown, and dinosaurs were attacking me.

okay so far thats it. post later. bye!
oh yea new song imba , enjoy

2008-09-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

now i realise the previous things i was emoing about,
those things that i was worried about.
there were just basic level of sadness.
i'm beginning to lose appetite i realise.
and i don't even feel like picking up a pen i drop just a few minutes ago outside my house.
i just saw it falling out of my bag.
u know like those slow motion type .
and there you go, the pen is on the ground.
i just opened the door and went in.

like i will say, 'damn cui'
just when things are starting to look better for me.
just when i thought those days were over.
its like i just stabbed myself in the chest again and again .
and no one could help.

and about her,
im doing things a step at a time, not planning at all.
because i knew that if i stopped and think. i'd back out
i would not be there waiting at the bus stop for her to finish work.
i wouldve gone home straight.
and then there she was, saying hi .
it happened a little too fast for me i didnt have time to think.
i just didnt know what to say .
and it made things so awkward.

life at this point really feels like a part where i'm all by myself.
i have to solve my own problems and all.
because i can .
i can but i dun really think i have the strength to do this.
i start to wonder why this had all happened.
why i was so dumb.

goodolddays.

2008-08-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

i miss the fucking secondary school days,
where you either have a very good guy friend,
or you have a very close girl friend.
or you have a girl friend.

ppl are always so free you tend to talk to one another alot,
even when its not necessary.
you can chat and say and discuss about how u feel ur troubles and all without wrying that ur image might be destroyed.

i remember the sec school holidays,
where its just wake up and find some thing to do.
wake up and call a friend, sms or msn a friend and get new plans for the day.
or else just meet up somewhere chill out.
i remember boon's morning message: " mos, going where today?"
lol.
now its like when i wake up, i either have to go to work.
or i get some ppl reminding me to return the money or some shit.
ok i know its my own fault my own doings and thats why i'm complaining in this blog.
i can only say life at this part of time is GAN PHUA SIAN.

now jing le is in camp.
not much time for me either coz he has to accompany yihui hahaa.
makes me feel liike i've lost a close friend.
already 2am and i'm still sitting in front of the computer. awake.
because i've been sleeping the whole day. i didnt know what to do.

now i'm trying to find some way to spice up my life like make it more entertaining.
because i know tml when i wake up. and i realise its time to go to work.
i will get very upset.
and i will feel like quitting the job.
i would feel like its okay, i'm still 19 its still early i can enjoy my holidays without working.
but the fact is, i still owe a huge amount of money .
i have to get this pay.

i feel so pathetic .
im telling this blog like its my closest friend, as if it'll respond and comfort me or something.

Liverpool

2008-08-27T15:54:00.002+08:00

when i fucking get my pay the first thing i'll do is get the jersey!
Liverpool new home kit!
maybe i'll work even after the fair , then i'll have be $_$ eheheheh.

ok right now i'm having a 2day off .aahahahah
best best . resttttttttttttttt
but the badnews is that that guy from acer just took my laptop back to repair it.
2-3 days without my laptop :(((((((((((((((((((( noooooooooo.
when i get my laptop i'll report on the condition ok lol!

Takaaaaaa.

2008-08-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

been working at taka these few days, so busy .
its wake up prepare and go to taka.
finish work, punch out, and head back home.
reach home take a shower then go to sleep.

anyway its been really slack lah at taka, ive been standing there without much to do.
and i've been thinking. . again!
this time about what i'm gonna do with my life.
and for now, i feel like just going somewhere far , open a cafe, where ppl can hangout, study, chill or whatever. it'd be damn nice. and i'd be running the place. wa, not bad ah. hahahaha
that place has to be some nice peaceful place. where the ppl are interesting and all.
ok maybe its just day dream, but i really feel like doing this lol

hopefully i'll be able to haah.

18.

2008-08-18T05:46:00.003+08:00

i never ever thought that the 18th year of my life would be like that.
it was kinda good. but short.
i got my license. im still in school.
i should be enjoying this right now.
but why is it like this?

i've already regretted.
my 18th year on earth has gone just like that.
and now, its the 19th year, and its gonna come to an end soon.
i can dare say i screwed up my life man.

ok tomorrow's the exam day. not really prepared though.
everyday i go to sleep thinking about my destiny and stuff like that you know?
what is future amos gonna be like?
is he gonna be someone successful, or not?

i guess what i wanna say is that i'm lost.
u know how it is that in tv shows and everything there always seem to be this really old wise guy who pops out of nowhere and guides the main character to a wonderful ending ?? lol
i need to meet that really old guy. where are you?
can you tag or something like that? LOL

2008-08-16T08:44:00.001+08:00

went with frances go stadium for a 2.4 run,
woo not bad , still able to pass.
but not good enough only got a 11min
nvm, still time to improve eh.

ONE FINE DAY. I'LL MOVE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY, WHERE ITS NOT LIKE SINGAPORE.
AND LIVE.
zz

2008-08-14T20:57:00.001+08:00

i've disappointed all of my friends,

i went back to gamble.

now i've lost like near to 1k.

helpless.

2008-08-14T06:10:00.003+08:00

i'm in deep shit.
nobody can help me now.

2008-08-12T05:29:00.002+08:00

i feel like im supposed to do something bigger.
something more.
more than just watching movies on my laptop, playing basketball and playing games.
something is there for me to do, somewhere is already there for me to be.
but i just cant figure out what.
it feels like, you know how sometimes it can be where you forget the melody of a song. you know its there somewhere in ur head, and you just sit there trying to remember the tune and although its very frustrating. you just had to find out.
yeaa something like that.

Happy birthday Singapore!

2008-08-09T20:17:00.002+08:00

didnt seem like the previous national days.
like any other normal day but with nice weather :)
todays weather so nice ah.
make me feel like slacking .

hey ask me out go track run or what ok i need to time my 2.4
i dun wan spend money . in debt now :(

2008-08-09T06:13:00.002+08:00

its not where it takes you, its how you get there.

today is fucking not a very nice day, spoiled by some nudos and some pedos.
and what exactly is nudo, and pedos?
go find out yourself. then tell me.
i did something really stupid, i went to 163 for 15mins then went back home.
petrol free one sia.

Change.

2008-08-06T07:57:00.002+08:00

so the first change i'm gonna make in my life today is .
to actually wake up in the morning. and sleep at night.
ok at least i try ok? no guarantees.
now its 8am. and i'm awake!

was watching grey's anatomy yesterday and i started wondering whether there was any more after season 4. then i thought, that maybe if there wasnt anymore it'd made the show even better. you get what i mean? like maybe too much of something good would make it meaningless.

lately its still been meaningless.
i still dun get wad i'm supposed to do with my life.
maybe time will tell, or maybe i really have to keep figuring out.
idk.

somebody saveeeee meeee!!! haha.

Hello goal of my life.

2008-08-04T05:20:00.002+08:00

just this weekend, i thought it would be kinda enjoyable.
nothing to think about.
hmm, guess i was wrong.
i was thinking, what am i supposed to do. . .
what are my fucking goals.
i just keep living my life like that, school basketball tvshows.
....................................
cant go on like thisssssss.

2008-08-03T21:28:00.001+08:00

i hate the fucking SUN.
i hate the fucking SUN.
i hate the fucking SUN.
i hate the fucking SUN.
i hate the fucking SUN.

i hate the fucking weather.
i hate the fucking weather.
i hate the fucking weather.
i hate the fucking weather.

my fucking ipod cable is gone!!!!
my fucking ipod cable is gone!!!!
my fucking ipod cable is gone!!!!
my fucking ipod cable is gone!!!!
my fucking ipod cable is gone!!!!
my fucking ipod cable is gone!!!!

2008-08-03T02:50:00.002+08:00

ICE CREAM(originally iced cream) is a frozen dessert made from dairy products, such as milk and cream, combined with flavorings and sweeteners, such as sugar, and possible other ingredients.

i have a big craving for chocolates and icecream lately. damn-it
im gonna start eating lotsa chocos, heheh can train my stamina for 2.4km run too.
cause eat more + run more = no weight gain, right?

just now went 163 to celebrate zixin's bdae. belated one.
then we talked alot. EMO sia.

tml morning basketball at 8am. so earlyyyy.
never mind. i need the sun now. big big one.

KITE!

2008-07-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

Come boon gab purple and weijie. lets fly a kite some other day AGAIN.
its omfg fun lol, didnt realise kite flying was so lame yet fun.

2008-07-29T14:34:00.001+08:00

In the context of unarmed combat or melee, a PUNCH is "a thrusting blow, esp. with the fist." In some sports and disciplines, such as boxing or martial arts, where punches are regularly practiced, hand wraps or other padding such as gloves may be employed to protect athletes and practitioners from injuring themselves.

hit my friend eat my fist

Photos

2008-07-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

i shall post that very fun day we had while flying kites, in a car!
(when i get the photos, stay tuned!)

2008-07-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

"Imagine you are a brain in a jar. You are nothing but the brain, but your brain is being
fed impulses by an evil scientist. The scientist is faking the signals to your brain that you
are reading the paper… then going to work… then watching a film. He reads the brain's
reactions to his inputs, and manipulates the inputs accordingly – so that you get sensible
reaction to everything you do.
You are living in a make-believe world, but there is no way for you to know."

how weird that will be. :o

123456

2008-07-23T23:47:00.001+08:00

edit 10k report.
edit IHP program.
DEMO for ecad.
school school school school school i hate school.
i want to quit school.
i want to die!

2008-07-22T14:48:00.001+08:00

Greed denotes desire to acquire wealth or possessions beyond the needs of the individual, especially when this accumulation of possession denies others legitimate needs or access to those or other resources. For example, amassing a large collection of seashells would not be considered greed, unless in doing so, the needs of others were jeopardized. Essential to the concept of greed is the awareness that the needs of others are denied, thus rivalrous goods exemplify greed while non-rivalrous goods may not. Greed also often involves using wealth to gain power over others, sometimes by denying wealth or power.

Some desire to increase one's wealth is nearly universal and acceptable in any culture, but this simple want is not considered greed. Greed is the extreme form of this desire, especially where one desires things simply for the sake of owning them (such as the desire to have great amounts of money not to purchase objects, but possession or the money is an end in itself). Greed typically entails acquiring material possessions at the expense of other person's welfare (for example, a father buying himself a new car rather than fix the roof of his family's home) or otherwise reflect priorities.

Coveting another person's goods is usually called envy, a word commonly confused with jealousy. The two words denote opposite forms of greed. We may envy and wish to have the possessions or qualities of another, but we jealously guard the possessions or qualities we believe we have and refuse to share these with others.

Greed for food or drink, combined with excessive indulgence in them, is called gluttony. Excessive greed for and indulgence in sex is called lust, although this term no longer carries as negative connotations as it once did.

A woodcut by Ugo da Carpi, is entitled "Hercules Chasing Avarice from the Temple of the Muses."^[1] Thomas Aquinas metaphorically described the sin of Avarice as "Mammon being carried up from Hell by a wolf, coming to inflame the human heart with Greed".

Proponents of laissez-faire capitalism sometimes argue that greed should not be considered a negative trait and should instead be embraced, as they claim that greed is a profoundly benevolent force in human affairs, as well as a necessary foundation for the capitalist system. Critics have argued this definition confuses greed with self-interest, which can be benign.

greed kills.

secret message.

2008-07-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

i may look like i'm not there, but actually i'm really there.
so talk to me if you can. use your instincts.

Invisibleeeee

2008-07-21T23:12:00.002+08:00

apparently i did not own them.
mr.suresh told me that i will have to edit my report if i wanna pass.
shitttttttt.
one more week
ok la. i try to chiong this report for him .
i dun wan to repeat this module man!
-

the rest of my day i slept away . . .

Presentation. Presentation. Presentation

2008-07-21T02:04:00.002+08:00

i love presentations
i love presentations
i love presentations
i love presentations
i love presentations
i love presentations
i hate presentations.
ok i really hate presentations.
but because i have my IHP final presentation. (VIVA)
i'll like presentations for just one half day.
ok lets make this fun.
tml i'll meet lee at westmall.
go g2000 get a nice formal T.
then go to school and own the supervisor!

low low low.

2008-07-20T22:08:00.001+08:00

Invisibility is the state of an object which cannot be seen. An object in this state is said to be invisible (literally, "not visible"). The term is usually used as a fantasy/science fiction term, where objects are literally made unseeable by magical or technological means; however, its effects can also be seen in the real world, particularly in physics and perceptional psychology.

Since objects can be seen by light in the visible spectrum from a source reflecting off their surfaces and hitting the viewer's eye, the most natural form of invisibility (whether real or fictional) is an object which neither reflects nor absorbs light (that is, it allows light to pass through it). In nature, this is known as transparency, and is seen in many naturally occurring materials (although no naturally occurring material is 100% transparent).

Visibility also depends on the eyes of the observer and/or the instruments used. Thus an object can be classified as "invisible to" a person, animal, instrument, etc. In the research of sensorial perception invisibility has been shown to happen in cycles.^[1]

yes, time to become invisible.

Lesson #1

2008-07-20T05:16:00.002+08:00

its timeeeee.
time to let go of my weaknesses.
time to really let go.
time to forgive myself.
time to stop.

ok who got job lobang.
i need work.
anddddddd
i'm gonna get myself a spec just like frances'
like this one
<---------

2008-07-18T12:45:00.002+08:00

i'd like to have a dream where everything is perfect.
knn lately the dreams have been so weird. i wake up with ?s on top of my head.

can anyone buy me this?

ok anyway, today starts with a call from this repairman from acer.
and so this guy came to my house. change the whole screen of my laptop.
you know somehow that made me very sad.
my laptop was with this crystal something something screen, you know the ones where u can see ur own reflection in it. he replaced it with one without the crystal-ly thing.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
ok enough crap gonna sleep now later go celebrate yulong's birthday!

happy birthday yulong.

2008-07-15T20:38:00.005+08:00

Ok now report has been done.
now its ECAD's mamaya project. ahahaha i have to create this shopping cart.
and theres my IHP presentation coming up. i tell you what Project presentation did enter my top 10 "ihatelist" . i knn hate presentation i dun know why. its next week though. still long. LOL

eh now that i'm not working i'm starting to miss life working in 7-11. the pay is crap but the work can be enjoyed . lol still, i'm not going back . and they have crappy food lol.
like this:

today its time to charge my battery, so i'll just spend my whole day sleeping. byebye gd night.

Friends.

2008-07-14T13:39:00.002+08:00

What are friends?

Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more beings. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them.
;

And so, finally i have done my 10k report.
its not really 10k though. Its only about 8k i guess.
Who cares.
I keep having this need, this curiosity to find out what and where i end up.
Where 'future amos' would be. how is he like ?
lol.
had a hard time trying to find someone who would print the report for me.
thanks for helping lol.
well i still end up submitting the report late. crap

today took two cabs; one to school and one back home.
the driver that took me to school kept quiet during the whole journey.
and in the end the fare was 10.20.
i gave him 12. guess what he said to me?
'eh boy ah, 20cents next time then give me back ok?'
i replied:'ok uncle, dun forget my face.'
and i left for class.
ok skip skip 2 hours later to the ride home.
this uncle was so talkative, i couldnt fall asleep(in a good way though, kept me entertained).

ok summary: today i learnt that taxi drivers are very interesting people.

10,000 word report (2)

2008-07-13T04:37:00.003+08:00

i'm still. at 1700 words. ohhhh myyyyy godddd.
anoterh 8300 words to go!
time left: 1 - 3/4 day

today's highlight: LIVERPOOL FIRST MATCH OF THE SEASON!

ok lah they looked steady .
not bad not bad. hahaha
well, for now i'll concentrate on my work.

fight hard!

10,000 word report.

2008-07-12T05:37:00.002+08:00

Hello, i've got this new blogskin with this super ugly orange chat box :)
use it often okay .

10,000 word report i have to finish for my InHouseProject.
today very hardworking went to school at about 12+++pm slack slack abit
then worked till about 5++pm

now its 5:39am and i'm at plaza macdonalds,
i just finish macdonald's hotcakes
and guess what.

i'm still only at 910 words.
90 more words to go and i'm heading to bed.

2008-03-05T09:51:00.001+08:00

dun say that.

2008-02-13T04:13:00.000+08:00

dun wanna listen .
but maybe thats whats gonna make me rethink.
is it normal for it to be this hard to let go?

damn myself, for being such a loser,
done all that stupid stuff.
never should've written all those letters.
they sound all so stupid now.

even now i'm still so fucking stupid.
sent a msg she wasnt supposed to see.
wtf was that for.

threw away $150 gambling yestereday.
for nothing. yea, i spend $ when i feel sad,
that makes me feel better .

gonna learn how to bake cookies!
lets make this the last thing i ever give to her.
famous amos cookies . ha

Recap.

2008-01-23T02:35:00.000+08:00

i need a diary ,
to throw all my thoughts inside.
unless i can find someone to keep it for me. ha
kel and miao's birthday coming soon.
looking forward to the event eh.

eh heello ppl.
lets meet up more. maybe once every week HA!
damn busy . i know. i also quite busy.
quite tired of life man .
a few weeks of feeling happy!
then another few weeks of emoness.
i guess theres no such thing as Happily ever After right?
i missed monday and tuesday's NF.
fuck i damn worried i'm gonna fail again

today met bok at interchange, then went to sch.
fuck, contact lens dry up again.
FUCK
sec sch i wear so long like no problem leh,
why now like that.

ok den after sch i went to techwhye to make a pair of new specs.
dun know la, anyhow ok.
so many ppl looking at me choose . then like damn paiseh

so come this sunday i'll have my new specs. :D
contacts maybe for dates and basketball . HA

2008-01-17T01:29:00.000+08:00

You're just a sad song with nothing to say

About a life long wait for a hospital stay

And if you think that I'm wrong,

This never meant nothing to you

Wallet!

2008-01-11T08:05:00.000+08:00

May is practical test date!
May 02 to be exact, by then i'd be 19, shouldn't be nervous about a stupid driving test!
HA.
just finished work .
gonna skip IS lessons later, too tired.
like just a few days and its 10 days over 2008. nice.

maybe i'll update at night? yea. working today too. fuck sia ha.
i'll try to ask them out soon.
long time no see =)
i go rest already. bye

everything,

2008-01-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

time is moving fast right,
work,
sleep,
school,
eat,
music,
its 2008 .

ha.
what would 2008 be like for me?
lets just wait and see hahahaa,

workwork

2008-01-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

they dun wan me to work when theres sch nxt morning, but ffs.
if i dun work on those days i'd be working friday and sat nights.
thats like taking my life away.
damn .

what to do .
today went to get a hair cut, den decided i should dye my hair color,
new year, new look? lol
but its still about the same la yea.
if i werent working,
i wouldnt even have the money to pay for it.
u think i like to work?

never mind.
everythings so positive to me right now,
work means i'd be more patient, more hardworking =D
it somehow test my mental strength eh,
ha. tonight i'll be working ya, double pay for the win.
tml morning about 8 i'll be at gombak with Mr Lok, need to practise my driving skills ha.
i was at the multi storey carpark trying out my dad's car, with my mum beside me.
she was like panicking as i went from the parking slot on the fifth floor down to the third.
like not bad eh. fast learner.
bet i'll drive like a pro in 3 lessons.

okay, i'll end my monday now. Happy new year everybody.
2008 . another new year .
this year i'm not gonna say emo stuff or anything like that,
too busy for it. ha!

yeap , gtg wash up, sleep, got like 5 hours of sleep left. no , 4. lawl.
then its work and sch . then back home to sleep haa.
nitez guys.

Update.

2007-12-27T04:41:00.001+08:00

the stupid blogshop, drag till now. nid do sia.
gimme the power please god.
hahah

been working these 2 weeks,
decided to give up , not learning bike anymore
because parents are gonna consider changing the car to a black plate one haa. best
lets just hope they do so, or i'll chiong work help them pay!

nid to do some shopping soon
hahaa.

what a day!

2007-12-24T15:18:00.001+08:00

for fucks sake mother earth, cant u make Singapore a little cooler.
fuck, christmas eve, the weather liike shit.
warm like fuck

just viewed the weather forecast,
WA LAO EH,
i got so sway or not . northern east got heavy rain, west area got big sun.
for what?
then u want the whole sg move to tampines to celebrate christmas izzit,
knn
think leh?
wa lao eh. one year once christmas u oso wan make it like that .
fuck sia.

2007-12-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

又何必去改变你走过的世界

2007-12-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

by now, the title bar is still empty,
i cant think of any title for this post, i dun know why
even if i usually post titles that has no link to my blog. =D

tomorrow is another day i meet CZCBOSS and gang for soccer.
Love soccer man. very fun. hahah
ok crap.
nid to change my work schedule becuase all days that has liverpools match i'm supposed to work.
fuck. my english getting worst and worst.
die,

been thinking, whether to really go for bike.
indecisive =D
yes, i can save up for bike, but that will take freaking long time.
by den maybe i'll end up looking like a beggar lol!

i'm feeling sick right now, blog maybe later or what,
bye

time to be fit.

2007-12-14T10:24:00.000+08:00

i dun nid any support already sia, its not helping.
i nid to mentally strong, i nid to not be tired at all.
WORK FTW,
or maybe tio 4d or something, can ease the prob abit.
i shall hide my helm at the store , so that nobody knows heahe.
gd luck ,

i give myself 5 months.

ROAM the STREETS

2007-12-13T01:50:00.000+08:00

shall enrol for bike soon, once i get my money,
will be looking for another job , since 7-11 only gives me 38 per week ?
shit money.
work more lor, no life.
hopefully the project thing will get me a steady income too.

i hate the weather,

2007-12-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

i <3 this weather, but it has come at the wrong time,
i'm supposed to study, but this weather make me feel so sleepy that i cant concentrate.
how?

lose,

2007-12-09T03:51:00.000+08:00

saw this uncle outside my work place,
sat down for a chat with him .
he damn funny la tell me all kinds of stupid stories .
then he suddenly, like out of nowhere,
he keep telling me things , shocking things.
its like he knows my family.
wtf sia.
ya . he just keep nagging and nagging about me working and not studyin .
haa.
i listened to him for like half an hour,
then he told me that he got no family .
like no one at home,
he reads storybooks out loud cause theres always no one at home.
and he likes to spend his time walking around doing nothing.
damn sad ar .

i really dun know where i'm going with this.
but right now i'm taking a break,
cause i ate a whole lot of food just now,
whole day eat one meal damn hungry ahahhaa.

O five O two.

2007-12-08T09:40:00.000+08:00

hi, i've finally booked my TP,
its on the 2nd of MAY.
yea. MAY?
i'll be 19 already . what have i done sia. drag so long for fuck

just finished work , 4d4d ftw!

eh if i win i treat u all dinner ok.

whoever reads. HEHEH

dun know how sia,

sleep or?

but no choice . must sleep, nothing to do.

dun wanna play games or whatever,

very boreddd.

i wan smooth hands. i shall touch more plastic carriers =D

busy busy busy

2007-12-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

NEXT WEEK.
EXAM.
GG
i didnt even know till yesterday, and i skipped sch today .
wad teh fck

anywae i've gotten myself a notebook .
where my TO-DO-LIST is gonna appear.

friday got work again .
okay.
my todolist i just finished,
theres "study for exams" inside, Book tp , and stuff.
things i have to do before the holidays.
i'm gonna be busy nowadays.
to fix my life back.
now i'm working,
although the fking pay not much , but its still money.
nid to excercise more . bb or stuff, nowadays no BB at 6 head sia,
lcp take so long to recover from knee injury.
duno lazy or wad.
get well soon ok.

i officially declare myself a happier person by the end of the 2 week holiday.
STEADY.
liverpool win more games too ok, so that i'll be happier.

just dl-ed teh LFC history movies, and Gerrard's MY STORY DVD movie.
anyone interested?

its a store and more,

2007-12-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

compare to taka, this job now is less stress .
thanks ar , taka made me fit for the job
lawl.
anyway,starting work at 3. now its 230.
and i wun BE LATE HA.

gogo !
earn that f***ing sum of money,
get a bike license,
and get a bike!
buy clothes,
buy lotsa stuff!

2007-12-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIHUI!

erm, the ambush was FUN.
like very exciting hahahaa.
i shall speak no more,
watch it urself eh .

hi, sorry guyx. i'm a stupid photographer,

i was supposed to take a vid of the surprise celebration for shihui,

end up i took nothing.

FUCK.

well, at least i took a photo !

2007-11-28T00:46:00.000+08:00

Time to change my life,

good luck amos!

SOCCER FOR THE WIN.

2007-11-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

had fun playing soccer this morning,

COME AGAIN SOON.

PINGISEIGHTEEN

2007-11-25T07:55:00.000+08:00

yesterday was ping's birthday,
now is not ping birthday but its 8am now and i've got to go down to fajar for soccer with BOSS zc
anywae, ping's birthday celebration was fun,
it was like a gathering, we went up to ping's house
the girls were like aunties, and the guys were just chilling out,
WATCHING LIVERPOOL WIN 3-0 , newcastle sorry yea. u were owned.

i fucking promise not to drink so much anymore,
the headache and the vomiting, NOT FUN.
eh
i reached home at about 4am , i've slept for only 2hour +
surprisingly i've got no headache at all!
i'm so FIT!

okay! wads nxt.
nothing much man, i'll just upload some tarded pics okay.

okay, like just one.
lazy . heh =D

7-11. ha?

2007-11-23T18:23:00.000+08:00

yay, going town with Cunping and gang !
meet 630 , now its 623 ! and i'm still home!
8am-1pm is POA lesson,
like quite early end , so theres nothing much to say .
then came the important thing.

its my turn to go for my car pracs.
yay!
reach gombak mrt at 330 .
called instructor,
OMFG i forgot ask him whether nid to bring money not.
so i called,
and found out i have to fork out 170 .

GOOD GAME .

bank left 150 . wallet 20 .

GOOD GAME .

tts why i'm home now.
wa ping,
i damn sorry sia.
not i dun wan go.
tonight your birthday already .
and u'll get ur first clubbing experience . lol
i sad man , canot go with u guyx.
too bad ? i got sad life .

walk pass my house e 7-11 store,
went in
asked for interview .
filled the form
told them i'd work during weekend (night)
this time die.
gonna work night shifts. then nxt morning i die.
go sch eat shit.
study nothing .
in the end fail my exams , become a lousy nobody .
then in the future i blame myself , why go 7-11 work .
but no matter where i go,
there's always a 7-11 nearby.
sad

whats a nothing day

2007-11-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

AHHHH.
love it when i have a day like this.
a nothing day.

wads a nothing day?
(eh i'm talking all these shit and i dun even know anybody reading or not ha. )
a nothing day is a day wher u wake up,
do wad u feel like doing,
without any plans or people to pop up and tel u to do stuff.

listen to songs, play game. relax abit
HAAAA .

ok, like another 3 hours i have to go and sleep ,
tml have to wake up at 6.
8am got this POA class.
i'll use it to finish up my DWA.

and tmls my First car lesson sia.
wonder till when i have to wait for my TP.
heahea .

i found a bottle of honey in the refrigerator,
and i'm now drinking sum honey water.
LOL
wad crap.
nothing much la today , as i said,
NOTHING DAY.

2007-11-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

Today like was , the saddest day of my life, But still it was fun la. i'll just summarise, keep it short. cause i'll have to sleep and wake up at 4am to watch the england match . HA.

okay

7pm went 623 find them play bb ,

in the end rain. so i decided to jog back to yew tee. jog halfway saw stadium lit up , got match ,so i went in, watch the match , went home. GG

BLAST!

2007-11-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

shiok arrrrrr.
lately . been chilling in my room .
plug the freaking speakers to my lappy.
MAX VOLUME,
woooooo.

again, i need to keep reminding myself.
to save money.
enough for me to get my license,
DRIVE, DRIVE.

game , game , game.
i think i'm gonna quit dota.
shit-game full of crap.
no choice hahah too pro.

and i just realised i spend like 4 hour on one post.
i typed the first paragraph, then do other stuff. then come back here.
heaheae. funny right .
maybe i can type more like that.
aint that better?

two goals to be set.
1) save money
2) eat healthy food. no more fried food ftw!
3) find job.

get a Man to Man talk bro.

2007-11-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

fucking new look for my laptop sia .

COOL

Well, today is like eventless.

i finally found the song, Numb Encore and i've been playing it since i got it,

i'm still listening to it now . HEH!

yea . preparing for sum interview session,

this time its us interviewing. we're gonna be the ones asking questions.

been managing my folders and files, pics and stuff,

found some old pics, some new pics, i miss the old stuff.

but heck .

theres more to come hehehehh .

saturdays a big day eh.

prepare to have some fun lol!

called instructor lok , and he fucking busy till friday sia.

like 330 . wtf? so long.

cant wait hahahahah .

eh i'm stil enjoying my NEW laptop sia.

okay its not completely new but new look ar.

i wonder how big the archive can get eh?

maybe i'll blog till i'm 50. lawl?

i looked like an idiot.

2007-11-19T03:14:00.000+08:00

today was a weird day after all.

i woke up from a Classmates' call.

had to meet in town for some project work , found a spot at STARBUCKS
(internet conn there can play dota sia)
yea, worked till like 12am.
then rushed to the mrt station

GUESS WHAT,
last train ends at KRANJI
omg
what the fuck?
i decided not to board that train,
so i was left alone in town ,
walking around
wandering
like some weird guy,

and i saw this

yay, chirstmas. . . . . . .

ok, den my dad came and drove me back home,
then came the multistorey car park .
and i asked him to let me drive the freaking car.
we went to the top storey of the car park .
and he thought me how to drive! hahahahaah
ok now i'm back home and dead tired. byebye

abc , roti prata, bus, ice cream.

2007-11-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

i'm like abit emo now,

i just realised , if i really want to work hard for the stuff that i want,
i'm gonna have to cut slack.
its gonna change my life big time.
but i've been like so used to it already .

i'm just sad, because i've decided to throw that part of me away,
and i'm so afraid that i'll change,
to someone i'd kill right now.
heck . maybe i wun be thinking like this in a few years time.

i'm at year 2 now. in a while it'll be year 3.
how time flies eh.
fly like fucking piece of nothing.
like nothing , boom !
18 years gone .
just like that .
heh?
i know i have to do something . something which will make me somebody.
like something big in my life, some accomplishment.
in another 2 years or so, i'll be in NS .
in the ARMY
in the f*king army ,
hell, if ever any terroriist group tries to bomb us,
i doubt we'll fight.
i dun think fighting would be a great idea.
to win the war its like having to hope for the winning ticket in ur wallet for the 5mil TOTO.

so why do we even have to be in the army.
why not just run ?
ha ! today's entry super long.
the craving to get on a motor bike is growing sia.
everytime i see some tard in front of me in the road with a bike while i'm in a fucking bus i'd feel like switching places with him . my parents dun allow me to get a bike for sure,
after what happened to my grandpa, because of another weirdo taxi driver.

i dunno , but i just felt like getting a bike was something that i'd worked hard for,
u get the stuff that u want, u get fuck happy.
and i want to be fuck happy.
like that 'unstoppable' feel u know?
earn some money . keep. spend.
dun even have to wait for the fucking bus to arrive if you had the money.
take cab. the bus driver wun even notice u're not there, you and the taxi driver happy .

!crap.
cant think of any more things right now.
tired
giddy.

----------------------
you fucking cb, u think u very smart ?
u fucking criticise me without even thinking twice,
i reply by smiling at you huh.
but u know wad i think?
i think that u got fucking astronaut hair
your brain may be too small for your head to carry,
thats why u always wake up feeeling lethargic.
ffs u think u'd be some big somebody in the future?
i fucking think that you'll just end up begging for people to buy your tissue paper packs for 20cents.
good luck and have fun with yourself .
good luck

that so called, 'success'

2007-11-17T15:03:00.000+08:00

i've decided.
i'm gonna get myself a bike license.
finish up my car license soon, then go for bike,
if i pass .
get a bike myself.
fuck all the travelling shit
waste my time.
waste my money.

been thinking, wads all this shit about it being dangerous.
if i'll supposed to die, i'll just die
so who cares.
ANYONE WITH JOB LOBANG PLEASE TELL ME,
i work weekday i dun wan work sat lol.

TO-DO-LIST

2007-11-15T22:56:00.001+08:00

1) get a Hair Cut.
2) play basketball tomorrow. and ***in run more.
3) get some $ for TP.
4) erm, wad else.
5) get a life.

------

=(

Legend.

2007-11-13T20:18:00.001+08:00

hey, my first BLISTER.

ok maybe not my first, but i cant rmb when was the last time i had one,

think it was like 10years ago ? i dun know.

i'm starting to hate my school.

maybe i'll just buy 4d everyday + TOTO hope i just get the million bucks.

easier huh.

till then, let me just try to survive my remaining sch days,

miss the sec sch days too, where u dun have to really work hard. hahahaahahha

FIX it.

2007-11-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

W(*!&#$(!*@#$*!@^$!*&@#!*@&#!^*#@&!@

thats how frustrated i am,

1) phone spoil

2) desktop spoil

3) lappy fan spoil

4) lappy no mouse, spoil le

5) duno la. everytihngn spoil. nid go fix

lets do the equation,

spoil + fix = $

no $ = no fix.

so spoil = ?

ANSWER : $@!$!@#!%#@!%#@

...

-= highlight of the day =-

drum roll please. . . . . . .

guess who?

IDOL

2007-11-09T08:39:00.000+08:00

-=Highlight of the YEAR=-

welcome back!

2007-11-04T01:05:00.002+08:00

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

today's entry . . .

has nothing . . .

BUT

THE -=Highlight of the Day=-

Look at this guy in red. HEAHAE

welcome back!

2007-11-04T01:05:00.001+08:00

when a day ...

2007-11-03T01:17:00.001+08:00

got so many things i wanna say out right now.

or maybe type it all here , rant.

but i just cant think of any now.

fun but crappy.

2007-11-03T01:05:00.001+08:00

today was, a rest?
heahae.

sleep till 5 games till 7 basketball till now, gonna dota soon heahae.

hey. sorry arh today too boring already.
forgot bout the -=Highlight of the day=- haehe
tomorrow sure have!
haehea

maybe.

2007-11-02T03:01:00.000+08:00

hi, from tomorrow onwards.

my blog's HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY will be back heahae.

bored.

was reading ur blog. thinking hard.
in the end.
nothing leh.

The blog is unknown.

2007-11-01T00:47:00.001+08:00

i think i'll just stop "advertising my blog" ha.
its just different now.

keeping my fucking emotions inside.
i still do it too now.
only less.
its like, u get pissed off then vent ur anger off something.
like just that something that comes into your way.

i dun know sia, maybe its not that i want myself to be like this.
but theres so much anger wanting to come out of me .
ha, sound like some action movie.
i feel bad sia. everytime i try to vent my anger, because it doesnt seem like the right thing to do.

hmmm
wad else, cant think of nth.
i shall just keep this blog quiet haha.
like a diary heahae.

Cow very busy.

2007-10-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

basketball for every mondays and wednesdays,

fuck. now my left kneee is like crap.
maybe i nid some rest haah.
like not working to its full potential cant really land on my left leg sia.

k wadeva k .

i shall set a target.

i will wake up tml for sch.
i've been missing thursday's lessons for 2 weeks already haha. and its now week 3!
tml i shall turn up.

is that critical?

2007-10-31T12:43:00.000+08:00

hi peeps,
its wednesday now.

9am-4pm.

games to kill time.
then basketball at night.
okay!
back to lesson lol.

BLOGGER! I'm BACK!

2007-10-31T00:51:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

i'm back using blogger, livejournal simply ****?
or maybe i'm not clever enough to use it! yea. most probably the latter.
yea whatever ok!

Life has been, okay.
lately i get real irritated damn easily sia.
no i'm not having pms.

Big heavy rain now.
emoness is back sia.
maybe its because i've got nothing to fret over now.

hey. go listen to jay's new song. quite nice i think.
for now. byebye!

ccb?

2007-09-09T02:27:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna lock up my laptop already,
wan use then dun anyhow misplace my things .
now cannot use already.
so sad.

.
working suck.
stand so long my feet all numb already
so wad?
make money ma.
ccb

trying to write a book here.

2007-08-20T04:16:00.000+08:00

for wad seems to be a sometimes cruel world,
where everything seems to turn its back on you.
things that you want, going out of your reach.

i dunn know,
maybe its because u haven done it in the right way,
maybe its just that u're doing it wrongly, wrongplace wrong time,

....

i've got a brother! i'd rather not.

2007-08-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

lately , its been a little boring .
exams coming next week.
i'm in a holiday mood already
no more sch, more EPL ha.

who'd be there to listen to me,
who?
LISTEN TO ME TALK COCK!
z
toooooooooo bored sia.
no mood study
anyone is welcomed to ask me out ! lol

NEW NEW NEW

2007-08-13T08:11:00.000+08:00

got my w580i because starhub gave me a fu*kin voucher.

its a 50 dollar voucher for wad , i duno

but most importantly,

i got a new 'something else' and its the

-=highlight of the day=-

(no picture yet hahahah wait till night ok)

its my new POWERpac FAN!

its like aircon sia. freakin cold. or was it the weather?

jingle, wads up with the hello kitties man.

so now i'm in my classroom because of some remedial classes,
i'm here because james and gang said they'll be here, AND THEY'RE NOT.
YOU GUYS ARE DICKS.

EPL.. no, BPL

2007-08-12T02:44:00.000+08:00

ITS the start of BPL .
AND LIVERPOOL WIN!.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

YNWA YNWA YNWA YNWA YNWA YNWA YNWA YNWA!

2007-08-10T03:30:00.000+08:00

MAHJONG LEARN.
CAR DRIVING OSO LEARN.
LEARN LEARN LEARN!
exam in the 20th-24th i think.
so...
THIS 2 WEEKS IS LEARNING WEEK.
2MORE DAYS TO EPL.
SONGGGGGG BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

BBDC! BBDC~ BBDC $!@%@#!%

2007-08-08T01:11:00.000+08:00

for heaven's sake,

for like after 5+months of dragging, i still haven enrolled yet.
driving license!
Kuuuuuuuuuku.
eh tel u wad. by this week. SURE GO.
for now.
do nothing first.... very sian. lately the weather, the HOT AND SUNNY WEATHER.
is here.
SIAN.
i need rain.
i can see the world ending sia.
haixxxx
nvm. let me see Liverpool win one EPL trophy, then i'll die in peace.

today was like, whole day at home.
nothing to do. but .. alright la
went jogging at around 8+ i think.
then eat tuna tuna . used to it already ahahah .
Good good.
today is relax + excercise day!
tml shall rest.
or maybe basketball lol

right now.

2007-08-06T04:07:00.001+08:00

this morning, sunday morning.
i was sitting by the window.
looking at the scenery.
thinking about stuff.
but nothing came into my mind.

saw this really weird blink of light out in the sky.
eh i'm serious ok?
its just one dot. shiny dot. flying across the skies.
and its not an airplane or something.
its weird.
who knows what is it?

then came the sun.
its the red-orange glow of the sun coming from behind the construction buildings.
took a video , like a 10min sunrise vid. ha
will upload tml while in sch k.
for now i'll just go to sleep haha

hmm. mmm. haix

2007-08-04T23:35:00.001+08:00

things haven been becoming a reality to me these few days.
although internet's back, scv's back.
aiya dunno la.

i've been rather fascinated by how my life turned out.
i know its not anywher near the end yet,
but i'm still surprised i'm this person i am today,
now i'm waiting for frances and yuancheng to come over to my house,
today quite lazy to go out.
so.. will stay home .
my house damn messy sia . and its not any messy, its REALLY messy.
so . sry ar guests. really sry! ahah

hmm. mmm. haix

2007-08-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

work out work out !

2007-08-04T15:52:00.000+08:00

push up leg raise weights push up leg raise weights push up leg raise weights.

FTW!

internet and scv is back online
-_-
happy siallll.

yesterday watched soccer at ping's house, TORRES WITH THE 1-0 OVER THOSE SHENHUA PPL. HAHAHAHA
lmao.
update at nights.
byebye!

SPECIALs

2007-08-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

lame lex made me do this f*** thing on my blog.
well, here goes.

Rules

each player has to state 6 weird things about themselves, then find 6 other people to do the same.

ok. get ready peeps.

while playing basketball. i tend to be serious, but i cant help it when xueming burns me with a NBA STYLE Shot. cant stop laughing

i cant live without any liverpool matches to watch, i'm already 3/4 dead here during off the EPL's off-season. EPL NEXT WEEK!

before i go to sleep everynight, i have to play at least one game of PES6. using LIVERPOOL FOOTBALL CLUB.

i hate the fact that i have to travel all e way to bukit panjang to meet my friends. zzzzzz

i always dreamed of having a career in england, something relating to football. but i know i'm dreaming.

usually when i cant fall asleep, i will turn 180 degrees so that i can fall asleep. (means sleeping from o--<>--o)

NOW THE NEXT 6 ON THE LIST WILL DO THIS SHIT.

FRANCES

CUNPING

YULONG

ZIXIN

YUANCHENG

and ...

anyone la

tiredtiredtired.

2007-08-02T01:29:00.000+08:00

SOOOOO TIRED.
wanted to sleep.
1am + and i have school tml.

but wooo! got ppl talk to me on msn,
so unexpected.
not sleeping liao.
ROFL
have to say as many things i can.
k . byebye!

yay leech ftw!

2007-08-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

changed the song to my blog.
nice song sia. hahaha
anywae.

been leeching this unknown guy's internet for these few days.

WHO WANNA WATCH THE EPL WITH ME .
ON SATURDAY. NEXT SATURDAY!
WOOOO

EPLEPLEPLEPELPLEPLEPLEPLEPL

my dad told me...
maybe hes gonna try to pay the bills.
i still got a chance to watch EPL haha.

haha lmao.

2007-08-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

hahaha,

saw this photo in my com.

i think my sis dl-ed it.

EPL IS coming,

2007-07-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

I'm fucking happy.
EPL is coming.
next week.
but... i'll not be able to watch it at home.

well its ok.
i have friends. they could either accompany me out to watch, or let me stay over at their place to watch HAHAHAHA.
so.. well
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIXIN!
hope u like the watch, i like it soooo much but i have no $ TO BUY.

hi, and bye life.

2007-07-30T11:42:00.000+08:00

hi pathetic life!

i was told by my dad yesterday that we're gonna stop SCVs, and internet.
untill bills are paid off .
EPL starting soon. no internet no scv.
i thought that without SCV , theres still tvANTS
now. nothing. fuck nothing.

nvm
maybe its a blessing in disguise.
maybe i'll den become a more outgoing person.
maybe my brother wouldn't become a more useful brother.

maybe this is the time my life will be pwnz0r!

so i'll most probably be blogging during school hours, cause thats where i get access to the WWW.
i just arrived in my colorful class and just found out the lee & gang not coming to school
so i'll just be by myself today.
and enjoy being lonely for this monday.
ok wad. not bad, my mood still alright. thanks to the cool weather.
i swear if the weather is not like this i'll kill myself.

good luck have fun!

congrats . i've changed.

2007-07-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

oh yea.

this afternoon.
while in canteen 2.
viewed my previous blogposts from 2006 and above.
ha.
realised how much i changed
i look at my own post.
its like a different person blogging.

i cant really tell if its a gd feeling or a bad one,
i guess its neutral.
how naive i was.
just one year.
can change a whole person.

yet i rmb telling frances i haven changed.
lame.
not only that,
fucking lotsa things change.
ppl relly come and go.
and i hate that fact

i need someone to share my feelings with,
but heck.
who can i speak to.
sry.. i gt some great friends. but. i dun really ffeel like sharing .
so contradicting.
=(

exam is coming. EPL IS TOO!

2007-07-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

fuck. now then i realise exam still quite far away. dreaming m0s.
zzz
anywae.

i wanna thank all friends who support me.
my family , my friends.
and the mr lye tuck weng,
he very caring sia.
keep send email,

....

LMFAO!

i was trying to be thankful,
hahaha canot sia i laughing now.
WHAHAAH